PATIENCE

PATIENCE

This blog isn’t for everyone.  Including me, at times.  I have always been in control of my emotions....until now.  Honestly, this pain and anguish has taken a toll.  

Yesterday I had a great day.  I accomplished quite a few tasks, planned a bit for my future and had a social engagement.  The tenseness in my shoulders eased up. I felt happy.  Today I’m anxious and blue.  It’s noon and I’m still in my pj’s.  I hate this pendulum.

Lately I’ve been worrying about EVERYTHING.  Maybe being alone increases concerns about things I used to take for granted.  Like locking (and checking twice) doors...including the one between the house and garage!  Did I pay that HOA charge?  Will I have enough money on which to live?  When was the last oil change?

This crazy part of grief needs to taper down.  I know, I know it’s not this intense forever.

But I don’t have a lot of patience.