Monday, January 19, 2015

FLASHBACK of GRIEF

It's perfectly sunny and 82 degrees.  But when I pulled up to Home Depot, I just burst into tears.  

Now I'm running all the wonderful times through my brain.  As my friend The Misadventures of Widowhood says ... it's time to have my pity party.

Home Depot was his favorite place.  If I ever wanted to get on his good side, I'd suggest we go there and browse around.  Honestly, it worked every single time.  Then I remembered his last trip to Home Depot.  We had just gone inside and he had to sit in his walker, almost in tears.  He didn't have the energy to walk the warehouse.

An angel in an orange apron came over to see if we needed any help, and those two struck up such a conversation, that I went over to the plants and let them have man time.  The employee went far and wide, bringing the parts and pieces he thought would work for that project.  

As we were leaving, I turned toward Krispy Kreme (another of his favorites!) and he said no thanks.  He confided he thought that was the last trip to Home Depot for him ... he wanted to get home and take a nap.


I am sorrowful and just missing him.  He is my delight!

8 comments:

  1. Those familiar moments come back and sweep over us. Your quote up there is so true. It is the people and things we cherished and delighted in the most that bring tears.

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    1. I was reading a grief site and the advice when people say "let me know if I can do anything for you" in that open ended way ... we should say GREAT! Call me next year and invite me out. Second year is when we need the company ...

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  2. Those "firsts" get you every time, don't they. Virtual hugs coming your way.

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    1. Thank you for the HUGS! Especially from someone who really knows.

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  3. Well--stay out of that dang store!! Memories--every where you look.

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    1. I know! EVERYWHERE!!! Why it hits so hard on a day that is not an anniversary, or sadaversary, or birthday .... total mystery. I do think of him more over here ... no cute little guys to distract me!

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  4. Our men left big voids, didn't they? We share this roller coaster ride with you. Writing helps even out the highs and lows, and helps us leave that crappy dizziness behind. Virtual hug, AW.

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    1. Writing really does help me. I've never kept a journal or a hobby for this long! Finally found my medium!?? Thank you for the HUG! Now if I could find a way where I have to pedal to use the computer ... I could really get in my exercise!

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