Wednesday, July 15, 2015
This is exactly what happens. EVERYTHING is gone. I don't even have anyone to banter with.
I had 30 minutes to myself today while having my (first) MRI. (Did you know knees are custom made? I've never had anything custom!!) Who knows why, but I spent the time thinking about Mr. Ralph. Probably because of how many MRIs he had to have. They are only bad news in my humble opinion. Now my knee hurts because he had to turn it to make it straight enough for the MRI.
Missing the income is a horrible pain in the butt. But not life threatening. We planned for retirement and saved what we thought was enough, but at the rate I am spending I should plan to die within three years. I am inspired by friends who live on practically nothing (love you, Judy) and my parents who raised six pretty great kids on practically nothing (love you guys too!) So I'm pretty sure I can cut way back in lots of ways and still have fun. When I run out, it's time to sell the Maui house.
I am finding out that I am capable of managing what life throws my way. Thankfully I have a sister and friends who have kind ears. I'm learning that I love to learn. Especially computer skills. Being a single parent of young 30-somethings who are ten years behind the curve is challenging, yet we are all figuring things out. They don't live the way I would like them to but it's not my life to live. I'll do things my way and they can do theirs. I feel useful with my volunteer choices. I'm happy that I can change my lifestyle and be healthier. (Weight Watchers tomorrow!)
Mostly I still miss the little day to day things. Sharing a meal. Having help to make the bed. Going grocery shopping together. Stopping for afternoon coffee. Going to music in the park.
Just miss him.