I can't believe I'm going to say this ... but taking a walk helped a lot. Not a brisk walk even (kneesles today as well) but a gentle 20 minutes of wandering around. Fortunately, a few neighbors were out and about so I made myself approach them and chat. That wasn't in my comfort zone yet I survived and feel more human because of it.
Now I give more thought to how I treat people and howI react in different situations. I can take the time to give compliments, listen carefully, and smile more. The more I practice, the less work it becomes.
Small accomplishments continued. Made the bed, cleaned off the patio of army men and a tub of water and boats and little boy goggles, and emptied the outdoor storage shed so my handykid can build some shelves to actually FIT my storage. Emptied the dishwasher and started the last load of laundry.
I have a Maui friend arriving tomorrow afternoon so I straightened the bed and ran the swiffer. Of course, they have to scoot around the baby Play n Pack and containers of toys, but all in all it's worth the daily rate! Unfortunately, they have to depart Tuesday morning in the EARLY morning so I can't skip my Walk with Ease class.
I'm beginning to see happiness as a "choice" most days. Not something to be chased or bought. But something to invest a little effort in. It will never replace my grieving but it allows me to carry on.
You are a wise woman to be so proactive in trying to turn hour mood around....and when everything else fails, don't forget chocolate.
ReplyDeleteHave fun with your company.
Oh yes! Chocolate! This evening a neighbor invited me to ice cream ... hot fudge sundae!! It helped!
DeleteThere's such a push-pull in widowhood. I find moving forward - literally! - key, too. Choose happiness consistently enough and it becomes habit?!?
ReplyDeleteEnjoy your visit with Maui friend!
I got in 9,000 painful steps in today. And I hope to make happiness a habit. Thanks!
DeleteIt's odd how one day can be quite okay and the next morning we wake up sobbing and sad. I get so reclusive, but when I get out for a stroll around the neighborhood or have an unexpected,"come on in". I always feel better. Ever forward!
ReplyDeleteIt's CRAZY how each day is different. And it seems like hunkering down would feel so great. Stay in bed all day. Eat junk food and drink the whole bottle of wine! Yet, unfortunately, I know talking and walking is the better choice ...
DeleteI'm not a widow, but I still find so much to relate to in this post. I have had depression, and there were days I didn't think I could get out of bed. It's true what they say, exercise does help. Who knew? You have a great blog here. Keep going.
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