Monday, May 5, 2014

WITHOUT HIM


I just simply agree with Braeden.  I want Poppa back.

Now that the one year mark has hit, a few friends are asking me about dating.  Honestly, I don't think I will.  Maybe after a few more years or months or weeks, I'll change my story but for now, I'm just not that interested.  My mind is simply not ready.  My heart may never be.  My body?  Well, it's possible to be self fulfilled.

Actually I'm not very gung ho about any intense friendship right now.  Having good friends takes being a good friend.  And that takes time and energy.  I'm sorta happy with the "good" deep friends I have (very few) and lots of friends for different reasons!  This third or fourth circle of friends fills my need for socializing, sharing book reviews, visiting new restaurants (especially ethnic as Mr. Ralph had no interest in that!), talking food and wine, taking short trips, going to movies and all my other shallow-self activities. 

Philosophy and politics and religion and deep thinking is, in my humble opinion, for those close to me.  The world doesn't need to know my way of thinking unless I am using it to make a change.  Right now I have more fluff on my mind!

2 comments:

  1. Why do people feel compelled to ask about dating? But they do. Never say never....but I'm 99.9% sure I'll never do it.

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  2. I have a couple theories why people ask or encourage us to date again. 1) they want us to 'get on' with our lives, and 2) they need to get on with their lives.

    You write so clearly about friendship - the different levels and purposes. For me, I realized my friendships were as unkempt as my life and house and body and heart, after the earth shifted on its axis, DOD. If I had it to do over, I'd still make being with him, caregiving almost round the clock his last few years, my priority. But oh! what a pickle it left me in afterwards!

    When I looked for help online in 2005, I shuddered. It's like women my age were simply to adjust to staying in a funk the rest of their lives. Crap! I love reading your blog because you find your way out of every funk. You go, girl!

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